A few months ago my life change. In a small room full of strangers a crushing blow hit me. My eyes swelled with tears and my mind stopped working, as they told me that my angel baby Tucker had a small form of Autism called PDDNOS. I remember thinking your wrong just because he does not talk to me does not mean that he is autistic. So for the passed few months I have been in a world of thought as to how this happened and how to fix it. I now have two options I can give in and believe what they tell me is true that he will always be a little weird and that he may never talk to me or I can stand up and fight with the other warrior mothers of autism. So I chose to stand up and fight against this epidemic call autism and I will find away to recover my son, so that some day I will hear him speak to me and tell me Mom “I love you”. So for those of you that have angle babies that speak to you listen and enjoy every word out of their mouth because there are many mothers that would love to hear one word from their babies. I know that the Lord has big plans for my family and me. Without this challenge I would not be on this warrior road and I would not meet the many people that I will along this road. I know that the Lord has big plans for my Tucker man. I have hope that things will work out and that is just what every mother with autistic children need is hope. So to any mothers with autistic children I am sending out hope that someday this epidemic will be under control and that you and your child will recover. So today I choose to be a Warrior mother and fight for my son.
The whole bunch of us.
We are on the Franklin Mountains
My daddy look alike
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We love you and we believe in you and the plans that Lord has set forth. I love you all and are excited to see you at the reunion.!!!Kay and Benjamin
Welcome to my world and Anne Marie what you are feeling is normal sweetie. Every parent that finds this out goes threw the same emotions. Shock, deep pain, disbelief , anger because you want to make it go away even denial. We are moms ,that is what moms do we kiss boo boo’s and make them go away. And when you cannot make it go away it can hurt even more to your very core. That is just the way we felt when we found out James had Autism. You are ok to feel that way and your feeling are very real and very ,very normal. The way I have explained it to other moms and dads is this.
Autism is a lot like a trip you have plan to take your whole life. Lets say you plan to go Paris. you study all the things you can about Paris before your trip. you even learn to speak French so that your time will be even better. then that day for the trip comes you feel ready and so happy to have this chance. It is a gift to get to be apart of this you know that the Lord has blessed you. Then when you get to the airport your excited to be on that flight and it feels so good so what you had hope for. then things start to go wrong. your still excited about your flight and its ok that it had to get rerouted and you think " it's ok we can still get there this can not be happing we just have to take a different road" then you find out that you have landed in Holland. you find out that their are no more flights back and that this is where you must stay. You feel scared and confused angry, hurt. You start to look for a way to Fix it make things turn around get a boat out if that is what it takes. you know nothing about this place or anything about the place you have landed and now must stay. It is not to say that where you have landed is not amazing I mean come on Holland has flowers and Tulips some of the most beautiful things you could see are in this place. But now you have to learn a whole new world in which you must live that you know nothing about. You will meet people along the way who are passing threw from Paris and they will talk about how amazing it was. But you will always suffer the loss of that dream of seeing it. But you will learn that this place that you must now live can be all the more beautiful than anything you could have hoped for. When you reach a goal it will fill you up far more than anything. When you understand the new places you must learn you will feel and grasp it more than you could have ever thought you could. This road is hard filled with many lost dreams but you will reach many and when you do you will never take them for granite . You will see Tucker reach many goals that you will set Just perhaps a little slower than you would have wanted. Anne Marie I knew without you saying anything when we went to white sands all that time ago that something was up. And at Christmas I seen it in your face. I have been on this road for 12 years now please, take the time to trust me. Call me and talk with me. I have been down this road for a long time. we have a lot of info about this that I need to share with you. testing that has already been done on your nephew that may prove helpful for Tucker that we have not shared with the family because we felt no one understood this. As well please go to this web sight. I want to get you on board with this TheOddWayHome.org I know the director personally we are building a foundation of Warrior Moms with their kids so that others may be helped. You will understand more once you see the sight. Love Gidget 575-373-5675
You and Daniel are great parents and will handle this trial with strength from the Lord. You have relied on the Lord in the past and he has led you. Continue to do the same now. We have a wonderful, happy autistic boy in our primary and he brings a lot of joy to our primary. We are looking forward to seeing you at the reunion! We love you all
I'm so sorry to hear about Tucker. I hope that you can find a way to help him out.
I hope that you will find many miracles along this road! I have many friends who have dealt with this in their families and my heart goes out to you. Your little Tucker is such sweet boy....I hope the best for all of you! I will keep you in my prayers!
Anma, you are amazing!! I look up to you a lot. You guys will make it through. My heart goes out to you! Love ya!!
I have a niece who has autism. My sister has been through a lot raising her, but there has been much to celebrate along the way. At two years of age, Naiya didn't even recognize her own name. She is now five years old, attends mainstream classes at school, scores in the 50th percentile for language ability, can carry on lengthy conversations, and has many friends. Though there is a lot of work ahead, there will be a lot of joy too. Here's a link to the story Gidget was referencing: http://www.journeyofhearts.org/kirstimd/holland.htm It is an essay called "Welcome to Holland" by Emily Perl Kingsley. You are a Warrior Mom!
love ya,
Jennifer
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